the whole sky

Well, maybe I underestimated my blessing too much. Nothing happened for a certain period in my life and I thought that I have lost, I could not do it, I could never finish it, God had abandoned me, God left me. Guess what? He answers, the damned whole universe answer me back. In the most unexpected way. Nothing happened for a certain time, didn't mean that life stops at that time. Maybe it did stop, but just to hold you back from clashing to another event that will happen in a certain time ahead. So that you could take a step back and see another possibilities that you could grasp. By now, I will try to accept everything as it is, without trying so hard to understand it, without trying to work it out on my own broken bridge. Instead, I will just try to do it my own way, and let God answers me.

hey you, how have you been? it's been eight months since i saw you it's been eight months since our last time trading smile and it will be a year in total for our next meeting that, if i don't caught up in my own business too much though i already planned to take final tasks, but i know it won't be that easy i know you were busy too the last time i'm home, i just saw you for two days in total you were so busy i don't know what did you want to reach i don't know what your goal is i don't even know how are you doing right now maybe we've been too caught up in our next step that we have no time to reminisce our 20 long years road sorry, i was wrong it wasn't even 20 maybe we only have 5 or 7 years to reminisce cause the rest was fading into blur we took the gap too far in our friendship our years our distance it will be a year to our next meeting and i still am a panicked nerd when i see you later if you ask what h...

It's just a photo. If you don't tell me, how could I know, whether it is a sunrise or a sunset? It's just a word. If you don't live it, how could I know, whether you really mean it or not?

don't worry, i don't love you anymore but i'm sorry, you're just so fking fun to write about you can't blame me tho you anj--- astagfirullah

Kamu siapa? Saya tidak kenal kamu yang seperti ini? Kamu sedang marah? Pada siapa? Matahari bersinar terang sepanjang hari, meskipun sore tadi sedikit hujan gerimis, tapi hal itu tidak seharusnya menghancurkan moodmu . Kamu sudah marah sejak hari menjelang siang. Kamu marah karena lapar? Lalu mengapa setelah makanpun kamu tetap terlihat so done with people ? Kamu tidur siang terlalu lama hari ini. Siapa yang ingin kamu hindari? Orang-orang baik-baik saja hari ini. Mereka tetap hidup dengan baik, berbicara dengan nada sol yang antusias. Itu kamu yang kelihatan pissed off sepanjang hari. Ditanya, menjawab dengan balasan seadanya. Disapa, menjawab dengan gumaman kesal. Dipanggil, menjawab dengan seruan keras. Mau kamu apa? Kamu marah? Kamu sedang ingin marah? Kamu sedang marah? Atau kamu ingin marah? Kamu masih marah?

there were times, it took months to let go, weeks to forget, days to realize, hours to believe. but there were times, years and years, and nothing changed. that one time, for that one person, time, doesn't relevant.

Hei, demi matahari dan bulan, bumi dan lautan, aku ingin bertanya padamu ; u ntuk apa, sih, kamu tiba-tiba datang ke mimpiku? Aku tidak sedang  berada dalam penantian, kesedihan, dan kejatuhan yang berhubungan dengan kamu. Aku sedang baik-baik saja meski beberapa tugas memang membuat kepalaku pening dan rasanya aku ingin pingsan saja. Tapi kemudian, hanya itu, tidak ada yang berhubungan dengan kamu. Kamu belum terlintas dibenakku sepanjang tahun ini, belum cukup untuk membuatku menuliskan tentangmu lagi. Namun lagi, ini kamu, kamu selalu punya cara untuk kembali setelah kukatakan ‘kamu bebas pergi dan kembali sesukamu’. Dan kamu memang kembali. Kamu pandai me ncuri kesempatan dan mem permainkan ucapan gadis naif sepertiku. Baik, kemudian, bagaimana caranya aku harus menghadapi kamu yang seperti itu? Kamu yang datang tanpa tedeng aling-aling, tanpa pemberitahuan sebelumnya agar aku bisa bersiap menghadapimu, datang tanpa diundang. Oh, kamu bahkan tidak memerlukan u...