years of silence

hey you, how have you been?
it's been eight months since i saw you
it's been eight months since our last time trading smile

and it will be a year in total for our next meeting
that, if i don't caught up in my own business too much
though i already planned to take final tasks, but i know it won't be that easy

i know you were busy too
the last time i'm home, i just saw you for two days in total

you were so busy
i don't know what did you want to reach
i don't know what your goal is
i don't even know how are you doing right now

maybe we've been too caught up in our next step
that we have no time to reminisce our 20 long years road

sorry, i was wrong
it wasn't even 20
maybe we only have 5 or 7 years to reminisce
cause the rest was fading into blur

we took the gap too far
in our friendship
our years
our distance

it will be a year to our next meeting
and i still am a panicked nerd
when i see you later

if you ask
what have i done all of these year?
i still putting another year to our silence

***

Originally written in August 2018, but I thought that it needs to be perfected.

Nope.

I decided that I will upload it as it is, cause those times, this is the most raw side of me.

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