She Is Beautiful

Have you ever see someone who was so sad and helpless at the day; they desperately couldn’t do anything about it, and then sob quietly as the dusk down?

Just right at the moment when the greyish sky and cloud turned into a clear cold blue-glass colour, a tiny splash of tears fell down to earth.

I didn’t see it. Maybe I was too caught up in my work and had no time to look at those tears, but the exact moment I stared at that cold blue sky, everything just seem vague; the movement of the people outside my fence seemed blur, and calls of the mosque looked like they come from distant places.

I could predict the tears by the noon; thought that it will come soon, but I was flustered by the way that they were being held back for so long; till the dusk.

This day, I was too tired to observe my surrounding, but what happened to the day really was something that I cannot simply ignore.

Yesterday, this was happened too and really affected my entire day.

Today it happened again, but just as I said, I didn’t bother much by the fact that today would be tough.

Just imagine you hold everything inside by the beginning of the day; you’re tired, angry, mad, upset, speechless, ignored, at loss of words, and wow, those was an exhausting combination of emotions. Just imagine yourself feel those ways from the beginning of the day, even maybe from the dawn; could you hold your cry till the dusk? Could you be not broken for the whole day? I, myself didn’t think that I will be able to save my own self if I had that all inside of my head.

But once again, she did it. She saved her own self and became a hero for her own.

And when she cried today at the dusk, I didn’t see someone who was so damn sad and helpless; I saw someone that released herself from grieves and pains and that was so beautiful.

She is so damn beautiful.

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Written in an inspiring and heart-moving cloudy day
with eventually light rain at the dusk.
Malang, 3.13.2018
18:43 p.m



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