This Kind of Love

As the night goes deeper, it's gonna be easy to get emotional. And now is the exact spot to experience such feeling.


I love you. I love you so damn hard. This last night feels as strange the first night, and I knew, all I had were just less than 90 days. Everything, seems just flashing like yesterday.

I almost choke by my own thoughts. I need to be carefully choose what I need to say, never willing to cause you the pain. It's freaking hurt for me, and I know you're hurt too. It's hurt for us both. But, what could we do? This is the way we chose. I'm flying toward our destination. It's a destination that we both wanted but only me, by myself could fly in the journey. I know you want to fly along with me, want to have me close. But these two wings that had given to me, could only take one of us to fly, and you knew better, it was me. It is me.

So, you worried about me, about me being careless and foolish. But it is me who worry about you. About you gonna be worry about me. About you gonna cry because of me. About me gonna drunk in rush time without being able to make a call for you.

I love you. I love you so damn hard, that it could break my tears anytime. I love you in every way your eyes could see me, in every way you picture me as yours. I love you 'till it hurts a lot. I love you, I fcking love you, that I can't confess. Left me pray that you could figure things out by yourself.

I was in love, I am in love, I still in love to you. People lose their mind when they fall in love, as I struggle to put everything into words that we both could understand.

Please, see everything in the same way as me. Send me prayer to lift me higher. And I hope we agree about the sign we gonna send each other every night as the sky grow darker.

Tu me manques. Ich vermisse dich. 보고싶어. I already miss you.

Understand that the next time I see you, I bring nothing but loves followed by prayers.

P.S: I might not confess, but Taylor Swift said it on my behalf, "... I hope you'll know, that everytime I don't, I almost do." Yeah, I almost do.

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