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The Visiting

Gambar
One day, you came and  knocked on my door, with no sign; after a dreadful battle between a stormy ocean inside my mind, and a rocky mountain of my thought. You've always come to pay a visit between a long tiring journey of a heart-home, to another awful journey of another dead-shore. So, I'm stuck at that moment; when you knock on my door, and I don't have a gut to open that door.

Playlist

You gotta know this; know, when I shared my playlist with you, means that you were nothing just it. When I share those songs to you; I want you to hear my thoughts, I want you to read my minds, I want you to understand my feeling, and I want you to know me; more than what you see or what you hear, more than what I show you, more than what I sing you.

My Space #1

Aku masih ingat, hari-hari awal aku tiba di sini; aku menangis, karena tempat ini kosong, sangat asing dan aku hanya sendirian. Dan kini, hari terakhirku di sini; aku ingin  menangis, karena demi apapun, tempat ini sudah penuh, begitu familiar dan bahkan menjadi bagian dari pencapaianku. Semua sudut, semua celah dan retakan, semua noda di dinding, bekas selotip, bekas paku, noda rembesan air, bekas tetesan cat yang sudah menemani sejak awal, derit pintu, effort tiap malam ketika menutup jendela, gorden yang digantung menggunakan lakban, kabel perbaikan yang ujar salah seorang kakak senior pemasangannha "kedada etikanya lalu", kabel perpanjangan yang sering jadi jebakan untuk orang baru, jamur yang tumbuh di dinding-dinding lemariku, lantai miring di depan kamar, saluran air yang meluap kala hujan, bau apek ketika pintu selalu kututup sepanjang hari, sinar yang menelisik melalui kaca jendela dan ventilasi, sarang laba-laba tipis di sudut langit-langit, ruangan pengap itu, ka...

Bonding

I don't know whether it was a coinsidence; cause it was too strong and weird. I don't know whether it was fate; just because it was always you. I don't know whether it was a quiet tiny bond between us; cause you keep pulling me back. Out of all the most random time, why did you show up at that time? Out of all random act, I would never expect you'll realize mine. It was real, you liked it and you talk about it. Literally, you see it , at that most random time. Or, Out of all random time, why did I choose to be seen at that time? It was not a random act, I already planned it for long time. It was real, I exposed it and it became the talk of the town. Literally, I wanted to be seen , at that exact moment. Now, Thanks for show up and turn my already messed world upside down. ... and I still wonder; whether we're completely fated, or you're the one who keeps pulling this broken knot, or am I the one who was never learn the path?