What Am I to You?

So, I was a fool
I thought you just do that to me
In fact, you are nice to everyone
You smiled to everyone
You called everyone’s name correctly
On and on, and you just nice
I’ve let my mind drift so far away
Even if you did that on purpose, I’m now slowly back off
I wonder, did I act too honest and make you go?
I wonder if it’s because of my silence
It’s all of the people have been mistaken
I’m not playing hard-to-get
I’m playing don’t-know-what-to-do
Cause these all new to me
You’re the one ever doing this far
You don’t know how nice that was to me
And I’m just happy
And you turn the table by a scene that seems so perfect in everyone’s eyes
I could hardly say a thing to make things work out
I’m easily hurt
I’m easily get to misunderstand things
If I know a thing that didn’t happen in the way it should be,
I will slowly give up
Making me misunderstand or felt guilty over something will only push me away
I don’t like to be burdened by the things that gives no certainty
I will slowly walk and sit back

You’re all nice and I don’t want that.

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